haven't recover yet...

i am still in such pain these days..i don't know how i really feel for him..i'm just to confused to tell myself if i still like him but instead i tried my very best to act normal in front of him yet i screwed..

it's recess time,and i was told to photocopy something for my classmates and i had an instinct to use the other stairs instead of the usual stairs..i accidentally bump into him when he was kinda fixed his outfit..well,i was talking like usual at first but when i faced up,oh,shoot!i suddenly shut up and my heart was beating like fuhh,fast..and i went down the stairs with such a hurry and i had accidentally push the "ROCKY" box downstairs and i act like i did a crime or something...so i went down and said sorry to him and he kinda tease me..i did say to him"sorry,sorry..aku x sengaja..biar aku tolong buangkan.."and he answered me"dlm tu ada lagilah..(while sighing)"and i spontaneously answered"yeke,biar aku habiskanla.."and i opened that box and it's empty..i was like ugggh..and my friend told me my face looked so freaked out when i saw him..i was like"oh,really??""my,how embarrassing"..i knocked my head with my hand and i was thinking how stupid i am to act like that in front of him..too embarrassed to tell..hahaha..

anyway,I'm still thinking about telling him how i feel for him but i guess i should just hang in there..I'll probably wait..